As many of you know, Josh and I have been trying to conceive for over the past 1 1/2 years. It has been a long, painful, and hopeful time for us. We have been to many doctors and countless visits. We have tested everything possible and tired it all.
Last year we did two Artificial Insemination visits. Neither was successful. Then this summer we decided it was time to do Invitro Fertilization (IVF). We were so sure that IVF would work for us because I had gotten pregnant so easily with Addie and my body knew now to be pregnant, obviously. We figured it was a given.
But it was not successful either.
We were heart broken. All the pain, time, money, hope, and everything that went into that IVF cycle and it didn't work! But one thing helped get us threw it. I still had 2 strong, frozen embryos to use for another cycles. So as soon as my body was back to normal after all the hormones I had to inject into myself, we tried it again. And the 2nd time we REALLY that it would work. It had to. It was our last shot with IVF for a long time.
We prayed so hard. We went to the temple. I got priesthood blessings. This time it had to work.
But the phone call I got a few weeks later was a shock.
My blood pregnancy test was negative. I held the phone in my hand and couldn't speak. I asked the doctor if there was a mistake and maybe I tested too early. She said no. The test was right.
Heart broken. Again. Josh and I tried to pick up the pieces of our hopes for another child. It took a while to be able to even talk about what we do from there.
Now we have decided it is time for us to pursue ADOPTION. We are excited about this new adventure. I know it brings along a lot of stress, hope, worry, ect. But we are ready to continue working towards making our family grow. Whatever it takes.
We met with an adoption agency today and got started with them. We are currently working on a TON of paperwork, ect but we are started in the process. This is exciting!
So to you, our family and friends. If you ever hear of anyone thinking about or looking into putting a child for adoption. Please think of us. Recommend us. We need to spread the word that we are ready for another precious child in our home to love. Wish us luck! :)
7 comments:
We are so sorry for your heartbreak. and impressed with your resilience. You and Josh are too cute and it is a lucky child that will be adopted into your family! We wish you the best of luck and will keep our ears open!
Oh Rachel. Your post made me cry. YOu guys are the most amazing parents, and although this has been so hard it is going to end up great, I just know it. I will let you know if I hear anything. Good luck, you guys are awesome!
PS- You guys can adopt me if you want. ;)
Again, I'm so sorry for this journey you've had to be on, but I know from experience it only makes you grow stronger. I'll keep my ears open and offer many prayers on your behalf! Love you!
Rachel, you are in my prayers. I'm so sorry for the pain you all have gone through. I pray that all works out. You both are amazing parents! Addie is lucky to have you! Love ya!
I'm so excited for you guys! I know adoption can be a long and hard road too, but this is such an exciting new adventure! Can't wait to see you and give you some hugs :)
Rachel, I love you so much and I know that the Lord has a special little child that is meant to be in your home. Be patient and it will happen. . . (:
Rach! You are just so amazing! I know that whoever gets the chance to come into your home and be sealed to your family will be truly blessed. A little baby is just a'waitin I know it! :) I love you guys!
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